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by Ashes of Alexis

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Oh god the irony has got me maniacally smiling while I'm spiraling;
Realizing the thing I most despise has the same eyes as me.
Oh god but what if it's all been an illusion
Symptoms of a life long spent
in delusional confusion.
Too woozy from my imaginary contusion.
There's an itch in my brain and I just can't fucking scratch it
Unless my mind really breaks,
split my skull open with a hatchet.
Can't even imagine it, that's manic shit...
...or mabye I can, 'cause I'm on both sides of the magic trick.
Fucking sadist. Fucking masochist.

I swear its not anger its rage and I can control it. Emotion and logic conflict tugowar with my conscious. Dive into a circus act this vessel mindful of heartless. If I tempt the axe can I keep myself in the process.
The reflection of rejection is means for alternations in the depths I perceive of what it is to be unique

Oh god is our connection so deep or should I rectify my intention based on deception from those I've accepted draw patience disregarding the balance
The reactions decide, swing wide split minds
Silence paints dead room white noise catastrophic.

Awe struck in the vertices cowering corner empty apartment
my best description from both sides of myself catatonic.
Close as I let anyone get is my coroner or cigs in my pocket
Or the artist whose chalk line gracefully traced me in the last panel of this comic.

I told them its not anger its rage and I must control it. Illogical emotion destroy appliance remain stoic. Regret and repeat a hot driving steel through my construct. Passion blade of violence and a gross misuse of my conduct
The reflection of rejection is means for alternations in the depths I perceive of what it is to be unique

What's the point if we don't see the end of the rainbow
Is the other side greener, or is it just because we say so (x3)


released December 25, 2019
Robert Ellis - Vocals
Tyler Wells - Guitar
Andy White - Bass
Kyle Cowling - Keys/Vocals
Brandon Dodd - Drums

Produced, mixed and mastered by David Pietila at SourceTrack Studio


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Ashes of Alexis Neenah, Wisconsin

We are on the pursuit of infinite metal glory.

Ashes of Alexis is:

The relentless beatings of Brandon Dodd on drums, the twisted, articulate riffs of Jordan Allen and Jordan Bradford on guitar, the slams and pops of Andrew White on bass, the profound keys and vocals of Kyle Cowling, and the unapologetic poetry of Robert Ellis as lead vocalist. This is the ultimate formula for Ashes of Alexis.
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